Your day may improve once you give yourself one clear direction instead of chasing whatever feels most interesting in the moment. A practical obligation could be easier than you expect if you start before you feel completely ready. Momentum matters more than enthusiasm today.
Someone close to you may want a more definite answer than you have been giving. If you are unsure, say that honestly rather than offering a vague promise to keep the peace. You do not have to lock yourself into a long-term decision, but you should be clear about what you can and cannot commit to right now.